oh no. dis ish bad. e old me ish coming back.. i m cravingg for MJ.. tinking of calling in sick every morn.. I AM BACK! e nua me that jus wan to haf fun n dun care abt aniting else ish coming back. haha. i tink i ve been pretty responsible n hardworkin for e past 9 mths. which can b considered a miracle as everyone noe i m nuaed. but... engine slowing.. MJ coming.. TA DA! i m back n i wan jus wan to b myself frm nw on! doing tings thats against wat i realli wan is tiring. like being nice to a AT at work, during lunch, n on e way hm reallie tires me.. theres a limit to how much i can make small tok to someone i dun realli wan to do dat to. my professionalism ish wearing out. i cant work wif ATs. its reallie reallie my limit. soon.. i will b myself again.

i nearlie lost my laptop yest.. its such a scary exp. i was happily eating n walkin hm when suddenli i realise how come i m nt holding my laptop?! *feelin so relaxed coz theres no burden on my hands* n then omgs. my mind went blank! i went to bus stop to see if i left it there but dun haf. so i sat down n stoned. luckily i called charles n keith at j8 n they say they found it there.if nt i will jus cry la!! its like so mani work stuff inside which ish nt back up. if i lost it i m so dead..

so i m happie i gt my laptop back.. then. todae i received email frm e dumb dell that say my order is cancelled. UGHS. there goes my $1200 red laptop that i ordered last week. still waitin for them to get back to me abt e order.. its so weird. i nearli lost my old laptop but got it back. i ordered my new laptop but its gone. so. m i destined to continue using dis gg to 4 yrs old acer? *sad*

its back to the daes when i always gt a shock when i update my bank book or check my balance enquiry.. why?! why does the number always go down?! why ish the withdrawals always more than e deposit?! e big qns: WHY AM I ALWAYS BROKE?

so.. this shall no longer be a general blog.. it shall be a blog to RECORD what i haf done to become dis state..

craziee expenses recently:

1. Japan + bag (est. $3.8k)
2. Driving lessons (est. $2k)
3. New Dell laptop (est. $1.2k) its a red one!!!
4. Fone (est. $100)

and to save up for upcoming expenses:

1. October trip to...... ? not confirmed yet.. but prob need to save $3k.. coz we r probably gg hokkaido! snow snowww!!! my white xmas dream coming trueee..

2. no other expenses coz no income to support it animore...

sux. being a salaried worker ish nt gg to take me aniwhere dis lifetime. i will always be stuck in dis vicious cycle of saving to travel then broke n save again to travel. i need to find new ways of increasing my finances!!! pls tip me if u haf a way of making money!