pre work depression...

went for interview on wed.. gt employed on wed n startin work on mon. its SO fast til i m feelin reallie depressed n wonderin if i m rushin into it. if i say i nid to rest more i tink lots of ppl will beat me coz i haf been playin for 3 mths plus le.. yet i still tink its nt enuff! haha. my heart ish telling me i wan to play.. but my brain ish tellin me i nid $$.. all rite i m gg on mon to ask clearly wats my job scope n pay n leave n benefits etc.. dun b surprised if i say i m lookin for job again on mon.. heehee.. so tempted to jus reject n look again..

n i reallie feel like bangin my head on e wall when i look thru my wardrobe.. WHY did i buy so much clothes dat i cant wear to work de?! WHY?! why din i buy more workin wear?!?! ughs. how dumb can i be.. omggg n i din like gg out ever since i came back so WHY Did i buy those clothes for?! *faints*

and after trying out clothes.. i decided to stop snacking n eatin so much! i m gg to join gerfren in e resolve to lose weight liaos.. NO more chocs pls. (except for godiva ones.. yum)

new resolve

i m so going to miss sch daes.. someone pls rewind my life back to 7th of may 2008... =(