hehe. inspired by my driving lessons recently. i jus feel like i m on dis looong loong road.. dunno whats at the end of the destination. feeling lost recently like i m driving on this road for a few hrs n i still cant find a gas station or a town in sight.. need to buy a new gprs to guide me to the correct place so tat i wun keep gettin lost. reallie wonder wats ahead rite at the end.. i NEED A GOOD GPRS SOON!!!

so my day started lidats..

11AM:

received a call frm one of the boutique.. asking about her commission and why is she not entitled to commission when she is transferred to another boutique recently.. so she nag n nag its nt fair that she gt no comm at the transferred boutique.. so i feel a bit bad at first coz no comm at the 2nd boutique. THEn i check her sales figures, she did not even meet the min target of 10k to be entitled to commission. so why the hell is she calling me and ask me abcdefg abt her comm!? so i called her n tell her hey u did nt meet ur min target lehh so no comm wat. AND THEN she started gg on n on abt its nt fair la dat we change the scheme.. nw economic recession.. i dunno e situation nw.. last time they agreed to give her abcdefgfijk.....

seriously. even tho shes old, doesnt mean we shld give her higher salary when she did nt even perform 50% of a cheaper sales ger tat is much younger. n everyone is gg thru dis new scheme so why shld she b an exception. its nt like shes talented to the max and we haf to give her lots of $$ to retain her n stuff. HELLOOOO. dis ish nt japan wif e seniority wage scheme. go japan la if u wan to get paid according to ur age. its the age of PRODUCTIVITY. stop naggin n naggin. i realli gt no patience wif old ppl. zero tolerance esp when they start nagging.


12NooN:

someone called n ask me if i heard abt the latest news of the MONSTER doing in the company. he deserves the name of MONSTER in the company whereby dis dear nickname is shared by everyone within 1 mth of his entry in the co. so they keep tellin me wat he did.. how they cant stand him animore.. if he dun go someone is gg to quit.. dis ish like the 10th time i talk to them abt the MONSTER.. tryin to console them.. tell them jus endure... things will b better.. why nt we try dis n dat so that we wun get to handle shit from the MONSTER so much etc.. no matter how bastardish he ish (telling one of e sales ger to nt make him slap her in frnt of e customer). his skills as programmer n engineer is still needed in the company.. all we nid to do ish jus b polite n tok to him WHEN necessary so tat our paths dun cross much. i guess its more tiring for them since their jobs cross quite frequently.. but aiyos. u all dun haf the skills so how can i kick him out leh. if u haf the skills tat he possess.. or able to hire new one tat is not a monster. I WILL BE THE FIRST TO FIRE HIM!! but sadly, all of us cant do his work. so jus endure hell wif him ba.

3PM

ok. one of e manager call n tell me abt the old woman issue.. so she started nagging again. i dun understand ppl's need to explain the situation to the slighest details when u noe the other party know 90% of the situation. n since shes more senior dan me. surely she know how to handle without the need for me to worry abt the situation after she analyse ritee. its doing double work wat. if u can handle. go ahead straight. theres no one else more senior n exp dan u. sometimes jus haf to act ur age n exp ba. dun behave like a year 1 tat haf to ask everyones opinion bfore u can make e decision. there r SO mani times when she called n tell me abt situations abcdefghijk.. n then i haf to go n understand the situations, then find a solution, propose to my boss, ONLY to realise dat she haf already told him before me n they have already come wif a solution to that situation. i jus feel like a monkey doing wateva she do only to find that i m jus performing a show n no one is looking.

its hard to respect someone when she need to get opinion abt the simplest thing from the boss. n from e exp of her making me do double work 99% of the time. how can i nt b smart but to ignore her almost all the time? i m getting more n more tired from talkin to her. todae she ask me to do smt again so i just kinda flare at her n HINT her using the simplest thing tat nxt time jus follow e method, dun go do smt tat u tot is efficient but in the end make me do double work n the results is the same. i tink she get my hint tat i m gettin impatient by her already.


i was tinkin thru wat my aunt told me once. why i choose hr. its e most diff thing to do coz u nid to handle a lot of ugly issues frm the ppl. now i realli understand wat she meant.

bottomline: i am not happy at my job.

oh no. dis ish bad. e old me ish coming back.. i m cravingg for MJ.. tinking of calling in sick every morn.. I AM BACK! e nua me that jus wan to haf fun n dun care abt aniting else ish coming back. haha. i tink i ve been pretty responsible n hardworkin for e past 9 mths. which can b considered a miracle as everyone noe i m nuaed. but... engine slowing.. MJ coming.. TA DA! i m back n i wan jus wan to b myself frm nw on! doing tings thats against wat i realli wan is tiring. like being nice to a AT at work, during lunch, n on e way hm reallie tires me.. theres a limit to how much i can make small tok to someone i dun realli wan to do dat to. my professionalism ish wearing out. i cant work wif ATs. its reallie reallie my limit. soon.. i will b myself again.

i nearlie lost my laptop yest.. its such a scary exp. i was happily eating n walkin hm when suddenli i realise how come i m nt holding my laptop?! *feelin so relaxed coz theres no burden on my hands* n then omgs. my mind went blank! i went to bus stop to see if i left it there but dun haf. so i sat down n stoned. luckily i called charles n keith at j8 n they say they found it there.if nt i will jus cry la!! its like so mani work stuff inside which ish nt back up. if i lost it i m so dead..

so i m happie i gt my laptop back.. then. todae i received email frm e dumb dell that say my order is cancelled. UGHS. there goes my $1200 red laptop that i ordered last week. still waitin for them to get back to me abt e order.. its so weird. i nearli lost my old laptop but got it back. i ordered my new laptop but its gone. so. m i destined to continue using dis gg to 4 yrs old acer? *sad*

its back to the daes when i always gt a shock when i update my bank book or check my balance enquiry.. why?! why does the number always go down?! why ish the withdrawals always more than e deposit?! e big qns: WHY AM I ALWAYS BROKE?

so.. this shall no longer be a general blog.. it shall be a blog to RECORD what i haf done to become dis state..

craziee expenses recently:

1. Japan + bag (est. $3.8k)
2. Driving lessons (est. $2k)
3. New Dell laptop (est. $1.2k) its a red one!!!
4. Fone (est. $100)

and to save up for upcoming expenses:

1. October trip to...... ? not confirmed yet.. but prob need to save $3k.. coz we r probably gg hokkaido! snow snowww!!! my white xmas dream coming trueee..

2. no other expenses coz no income to support it animore...

sux. being a salaried worker ish nt gg to take me aniwhere dis lifetime. i will always be stuck in dis vicious cycle of saving to travel then broke n save again to travel. i need to find new ways of increasing my finances!!! pls tip me if u haf a way of making money!

it must haf been some bad karma or smt.. a simple n nice getaway to japan for 12 days can be filled with SO mani complications. its like e first time i haf to overcome so mani ups n downs jus to plan to go on a trip...

1. getting leave from my boss..

after working.. getting a 14 days leave is actually quite difficult! unless u r doin auditing. my heart was pounding when i take my leave form to show him.. i was like so scared dat i will be rejected! its been a while bfore i feel so nervous. hahah but lucky. its approved w/o much comments! *stage 1 completed*

2. swine flu appears...

n then.. e supposedly deadly n more serious dan sars flu appear.. everyday more n more countries kena.. watchin news is like watching the lottery numbers of e dae to appear on tv. whether the 4 digit number u haf (country in my case) is listed on the tv. japan wasnt listed initially n we tot ok just go ahead la wun b so suay one right... *stage 2 completed*

3. its in japan...

ok. 12 days before e flight.. after e flight. accomodations. sumo tickets are booked. japan gt e flu tingy. but because they r found on the plane. so we tot ok no internal cases. jus go ahead! but keep the plan on hold first jus in case..

4. its within japan..

nvm. 4 daes bfore the flight. internal swine flu case in japan. #$#%$^%^%&. gg to japan will b so troublesome.. with the checkin on the plane etc. hais. since its already so close to the flight.. we r jus going ahead. i mean kobe is a few hrs frm tokyo anyway n we r nt gg there.

5. sick.

ok. finally. external conditions like e stupid flu can jus ignore. BUT!! my wisdom tooth coming out.. so my gum is swollen.. throat inflammed.. n cant chew with my right side in case it bleeds. n huiling oso haf gum swelling same time as me n she haf to get an injection. i mean.. how can it b so qiao that both of us haf gum swellin (tho mine is coz of e stupid tooth) n falling sick jus a few days frm e trip?! we haven met for a few weeks oso so its nt like we spread to each other or smt?! i m so scared dat i will get fever coz of inflammation n got quarantined at narita airport. SOBZ.

ultimate suayness. dis ish how i feel nw sia. jus gg on a 12 days trip can b so eventful even bfore gg on e trip. i mean last time gg on a 3 mths trip to US was so smooth sailing can. jus a tiny litle 12 day trip can b like dis. BOO. mayb its a sign that i shld just work n work n work in singapore.

praying that the japan trip will b simple n NOT eventful please. my heart can take rollercoasters ride like magnum but nt dis type of ups n downs. haf to get an amulet straightaway after touchin down in japan for luck n health sia.

it feels weird to haf nth urgent to rush dis few days.. last 2 weeks ish full of rushin dis n that.. den suddenli. jus doin filing n admin job n clearin e pile of papers on my table.. suddenli feel soooooooo nua n nuaed. if onliee i can spend one dae at a thrill ride park n jus spend e whole dae screamin at rides. dat wld b perfect.. smt to make my heart beat a little faster instead of jus beatin e same dae by dae.

so.. to motivate myself a little n to make dis life seems more bright n meaningful..

plans to achieved in 2009:

1) drivin license (basic theory on 29th! a little late but at least i m starting....)

2) Japan/HongKong/Korea (must plan some trips ahh if nt i will go dull in dis tiny dot doin e same things routinely..)

3) save $$$ to finance my plan 2. (limit cabs to 4 times a week.. its 2 times last week n 3 times dis week so far!)

4) start playing tennis! (oh well.. been talkin abt it since oct 08.. it will definitely happen by oct 09)

thats all i can tink of for dis yr... but i guess once i start learnin drivin den will be occupying my free time quite a bit le. as for work wise.. hmmm.............. no comments. aim for promotion/bonus ba? to fiance plan 2!

awww.. i nid some cute guys at work or aniwhere to brighten up my days. =(

where r e cute guys?! anione will do! (preferably tanned n tall n sporty with a great smile!)