i nearlie lost my laptop yest.. its such a scary exp. i was happily eating n walkin hm when suddenli i realise how come i m nt holding my laptop?! *feelin so relaxed coz theres no burden on my hands* n then omgs. my mind went blank! i went to bus stop to see if i left it there but dun haf. so i sat down n stoned. luckily i called charles n keith at j8 n they say they found it there.if nt i will jus cry la!! its like so mani work stuff inside which ish nt back up. if i lost it i m so dead..

so i m happie i gt my laptop back.. then. todae i received email frm e dumb dell that say my order is cancelled. UGHS. there goes my $1200 red laptop that i ordered last week. still waitin for them to get back to me abt e order.. its so weird. i nearli lost my old laptop but got it back. i ordered my new laptop but its gone. so. m i destined to continue using dis gg to 4 yrs old acer? *sad*

its back to the daes when i always gt a shock when i update my bank book or check my balance enquiry.. why?! why does the number always go down?! why ish the withdrawals always more than e deposit?! e big qns: WHY AM I ALWAYS BROKE?

so.. this shall no longer be a general blog.. it shall be a blog to RECORD what i haf done to become dis state..

craziee expenses recently:

1. Japan + bag (est. $3.8k)
2. Driving lessons (est. $2k)
3. New Dell laptop (est. $1.2k) its a red one!!!
4. Fone (est. $100)

and to save up for upcoming expenses:

1. October trip to...... ? not confirmed yet.. but prob need to save $3k.. coz we r probably gg hokkaido! snow snowww!!! my white xmas dream coming trueee..

2. no other expenses coz no income to support it animore...

sux. being a salaried worker ish nt gg to take me aniwhere dis lifetime. i will always be stuck in dis vicious cycle of saving to travel then broke n save again to travel. i need to find new ways of increasing my finances!!! pls tip me if u haf a way of making money!

it must haf been some bad karma or smt.. a simple n nice getaway to japan for 12 days can be filled with SO mani complications. its like e first time i haf to overcome so mani ups n downs jus to plan to go on a trip...

1. getting leave from my boss..

after working.. getting a 14 days leave is actually quite difficult! unless u r doin auditing. my heart was pounding when i take my leave form to show him.. i was like so scared dat i will be rejected! its been a while bfore i feel so nervous. hahah but lucky. its approved w/o much comments! *stage 1 completed*

2. swine flu appears...

n then.. e supposedly deadly n more serious dan sars flu appear.. everyday more n more countries kena.. watchin news is like watching the lottery numbers of e dae to appear on tv. whether the 4 digit number u haf (country in my case) is listed on the tv. japan wasnt listed initially n we tot ok just go ahead la wun b so suay one right... *stage 2 completed*

3. its in japan...

ok. 12 days before e flight.. after e flight. accomodations. sumo tickets are booked. japan gt e flu tingy. but because they r found on the plane. so we tot ok no internal cases. jus go ahead! but keep the plan on hold first jus in case..

4. its within japan..

nvm. 4 daes bfore the flight. internal swine flu case in japan. #$#%$^%^%&. gg to japan will b so troublesome.. with the checkin on the plane etc. hais. since its already so close to the flight.. we r jus going ahead. i mean kobe is a few hrs frm tokyo anyway n we r nt gg there.

5. sick.

ok. finally. external conditions like e stupid flu can jus ignore. BUT!! my wisdom tooth coming out.. so my gum is swollen.. throat inflammed.. n cant chew with my right side in case it bleeds. n huiling oso haf gum swelling same time as me n she haf to get an injection. i mean.. how can it b so qiao that both of us haf gum swellin (tho mine is coz of e stupid tooth) n falling sick jus a few days frm e trip?! we haven met for a few weeks oso so its nt like we spread to each other or smt?! i m so scared dat i will get fever coz of inflammation n got quarantined at narita airport. SOBZ.

ultimate suayness. dis ish how i feel nw sia. jus gg on a 12 days trip can b so eventful even bfore gg on e trip. i mean last time gg on a 3 mths trip to US was so smooth sailing can. jus a tiny litle 12 day trip can b like dis. BOO. mayb its a sign that i shld just work n work n work in singapore.

praying that the japan trip will b simple n NOT eventful please. my heart can take rollercoasters ride like magnum but nt dis type of ups n downs. haf to get an amulet straightaway after touchin down in japan for luck n health sia.

it feels weird to haf nth urgent to rush dis few days.. last 2 weeks ish full of rushin dis n that.. den suddenli. jus doin filing n admin job n clearin e pile of papers on my table.. suddenli feel soooooooo nua n nuaed. if onliee i can spend one dae at a thrill ride park n jus spend e whole dae screamin at rides. dat wld b perfect.. smt to make my heart beat a little faster instead of jus beatin e same dae by dae.

so.. to motivate myself a little n to make dis life seems more bright n meaningful..

plans to achieved in 2009:

1) drivin license (basic theory on 29th! a little late but at least i m starting....)

2) Japan/HongKong/Korea (must plan some trips ahh if nt i will go dull in dis tiny dot doin e same things routinely..)

3) save $$$ to finance my plan 2. (limit cabs to 4 times a week.. its 2 times last week n 3 times dis week so far!)

4) start playing tennis! (oh well.. been talkin abt it since oct 08.. it will definitely happen by oct 09)

thats all i can tink of for dis yr... but i guess once i start learnin drivin den will be occupying my free time quite a bit le. as for work wise.. hmmm.............. no comments. aim for promotion/bonus ba? to fiance plan 2!

awww.. i nid some cute guys at work or aniwhere to brighten up my days. =(

where r e cute guys?! anione will do! (preferably tanned n tall n sporty with a great smile!)

my life feels like some drama serial to me recently.. i feel like i m havin split personalities.. when with frens n at work.. life ish jus e same as usual.. but when i go hm. hmm. sometimes i m able to jus feel dat shes on hols. but sometimes its kinda hard.. i dunno how to describe seeing someone u luv gettin sick.. gettin weaker n weaker. n all u can do ish to wish dat her sufferin will end soon. i haf been gettin myself prepared for dis ever since she went hosp durin cny.. been tinkin of how it wld b like durin e funeral..

nw tinkin back.. i always tot dat when she ish leaving i will feel smt or see some signs? but i din.. it was jus a normal dae at work discussing abt money issues.. when i saw the msg: come home now. i jus told my boss abt it n arranged to work part time nxt week onwards. i noe its coming but i jus din expect it to b so sudden. feel a bit paiseh coz my colleague send me back hm n i wan to cry but i cant coz hes beside. so tryin to control in e car. e sight at hm doesnt seem real to me. i was hopin dat shes still waitin for me but she left oredi. n u noe in the movies. she din close her eyes fully until my bro came hm. such tings do happen for real sia. e first n last dae ish e worst. at least we r busy durin e funeral n there r a lot of ppl around us. but e last dae when she was cremated. well. i tink its e worst dae of my life. n oso e moment when they sealed e cof.

well. e worst is over. i m glad dat i haf lots of relatives n frens dat cares. esp those dat turn up unexpectedly.. n of coz ps for comin over everynite when i stayed up. i ve seen e ugly side of human nature as well. but i learnt dat in life u dun haf much time n energy. so jus ignore this kinda ppl. but its oso scary dat when one pass away. everything else is the same. e world still goes on w or w/o u. n its oso sad dat she din fulfil her dream of gg to a lot of places.. so dats y. no pt workin n workin n workin when u r young tinkin dat u can enjoy life when u r older etc. COZ. life ish short. when u die. onli ur family n frens will b around u. career n money will nt be missing u much.

feelin aimless recently.. wanted to quit my job but no one seems to b supporting me in dis. sigh. i shall jus wait n see how long i can tahan. n complain non stop as well. totally no motivation to go to work los. but ok la i will jus endure til oct den go travel! save up a bit in the meanwhile to support myself for a few mths w/o work. tsk tsk. feel like furtherin studies oso. but once i tink of need to write thesis i sianed. so i shall put dat plan on hold........ until i feel dat writin thesis ish quite fun.

whuever ish readin dis. pls treasure ur family. they r seriously e most impt ppl in e world.

here i m.. sitting in the office on xmas eve at 5:55PM.. waiting for 630Pm to come.. WHY? why did he just wish us merry xmas n go off at 3PM?

dream senario: He came in and say: Merry xmas! u all can go off early today!

hais. but it din happen. the 3 pathetic us wishing for a 'merry' xmas.. onlie gt a 'sit in the office until 630' senario on xmas eve.... went thru coach website.. ebay.. blogs.. emails.. BUT ITS STILL 5:55PM!!!!!

hence i decided to post smt on my blog.

Review on 2008:

Maybe i shld do a proper review report on my 2008, with all the evaluations, analysis, summary and recommendations for a better 2009? it cld take me 30mins i HOPE.

just kidding.. 2008.. my last sem in NTU was spent peacefully. i got a 2 dae week, with 2 no exams modules n 1 S/U modules. HEnce, i only got one paper in my last sem (which i study the day before the exam). my lovely last sem in NTu.. how i miss e daes when weekends n weekdays make no difference to me AT ALL...

then.. the highlight of 2008.. we finally went to US.. after signing up in year 2 but cant go coz of PA.. original plan was to come back for convocation.. BUT.. we got psychoed by some evil guys to extend our trip for 3 weeks.. which caused me to use up my life savings.. *sobz* but the trip can be summarized by one word: FUN! seen pretty places (grand canyon is so grand!).. played like craziee.. take pics with all the awful n bo-seh poses.. happie happie times..

after suffering frm post-trip depression.. was forced to find a job as i haf NO MORE $$$. (sobz x 2) got a job on my first interview. no idea whether is it a blessing or nt? ever since then.. i became a workaholic... theres no more off work on time.. more n more workload.. went hm later n later.. even had to go back during public hols sometimes if theres nt enuff staff. i think dis ish karma for being so slack in NTU for 3 yrs.. i think the amt of time i spend at work this 3-4 mths amounts to the amt of work i spend in NTU for 2 yrs?! retribution is here..

nxt yr.. i just hope i will haf a job n wun get retrenched (*touch wood*). new yr resolution: make n save lots of $$ so that i can support my parents n go TRAVELLING! so i guess.. all i haf to do nw ish WORK n WOrk n WORK. no more work n travel.. onlie work n work n work n work n work (continue non stop)...

merry xmas n happie new yr!

oh my.. 2008 ish ending soon.. time pass so fast! i was so sian at work dat i actually went to study the calendar next yr.. suddenly public holidays is so significant! next yr.. mths w/o public hol ish feb, march, june, july and october. SOBZ. i hate these months. how can you go two mths in a row w/o public hols?! i mite just die of work.

but on a happie note, there are a lot of public hols next yr on mondays! (to ppl like me who has to work 5.5 days public hol on friday makes no difference to me *sulks*)

end of the yr.. many customers are buyin winter wear coz they r gg on hols.. ps is at korea nw.. hl is still happily in states.. cl ish at taiwan nw.. everyday gt customers telling me they gg japan.. states.. korea.. etc etc. BUT.. i haf to wait til next yr sep/oct before gg on hols... arghs.

christmas is coming! wonder how i will spend xmas dis yr. n wat presents to buy.. e older i get. e less ideas i haf for presents! sui yue bu liu ren.